ok lets see..where should i begin?haih words don't pour out easily these days for me..its a struggle..but its ok..berusahalah!!
2009 is a year full of happiness..as well as sadness..
Lets begin with the happy yappy moments shall we??
double celebration for me..the wedding reception hubby's side was on the same day as my birthday!(4th january btw ehem)wheeeeee..sengih gile besar dpt surprise birthday card yang super huge and cake at the reception hihi..thanks to my FIL!
After 3 months of 'honeymooning'..we were blessed with a very exciting and out of this world news..the joy it brought to our lives was overwhelming..to us and both our families..refer here
however..two weeks after, masa the next check up at An-nur Bangi, what should be the sweetest moments we were waiting for, had turned into a devastating one..it was unexpected..unprepared..to us and even to the doc..
the breaking news crushed my heart..it didn't develop as it should be at 7weeks..no heartbeat was present at the time..no more smiles for me..just tears..hubby was there to comfort..but to no avail..
i was advised to perform the D&C as soon as possible before the excrutiating pain came in..
but deep down i was still hopeful then..maybe it was a slow development for the baby, maybe if i waited a little longer it would show..macam2 pikir..positive belaka..i prayed hard for a miracle to happen..
and so i went for a second opinion..a week after..the result was still the same..the sac was shrinking and the lil one wasn't growing..and at that moment..i surprised myself..i stayed calm..and i knew i dah redha time tu..it wasn't meant for us..not just yet..as the doc said, it was a blessing in disguise..recap here
mummy will always love you sweetpea..
Performed the D&c procedure at 9th week..before masuk ward kat an-nur, dah ada tanda-tanda..tak sakit lagi but the blood dah keluar..barang-barang dah pack siap2 before gi sana..so terus je masuk and waited sampai petang baru dpt buat D&C tu..
and to make it worse, halfway through the procedure i TERJAGA!Nampak la nurse kat hujung kaki tengah rodok2 kat dalam tu..sakit?
YA ALLAH!Tuhan saja yang tahu macam mana rasa dia..sakit gila amat!!Macam isi kena toreh dengan pisau tajam..mcm toreh pokok getah tu tau..
Luckily it was only for a few seconds!and i dozed back off sampai habis and masuk bilik balik..but it was something that i still couldn't forget till now..still boleh rase wooo the sakit everytime teringat..fuuhhh~
lepas dah sedar tu..terus balik rumah..malam jugak la..and berpantang for 2 weeks kat umah my parents..private punya MC..kalau gomen 1 week je..huhu
My SIL got hitched!I jadi penyambut tetamu youuu..k long le katakan..wahahaha lawaknyee laa..takde tokoh langsung!i hope i did well though..hihi and the great news..she's expecting..5 months ++..congrats dear!potong queue laa..haha
oh ye..paling tak boleh lupa..masa kenduri side lelaki di Sg. Besar..my MIL requested Mr Hubby and i NYANYI karaoke ok!di khalayak tetamu yang datang untuk menjamu selera..and aku dengan perut penuhnye menyanyi lagu Sayang Menyayang (Mr Hubby la pilih nie..hampehh tinggi gile)..yang keluar bukan suara lunak merdu..tapi suara ayam kena sembelih!!pecahhhh..wahahaha memalukan!!!masuk video lak tu..warghh!!
The news we were patiently waiting for..well i cheated..i tested before the monthly period was due..without hubby knowing..oopss now dah tau huhu..2 lines!but very faint..at the same time..Mr Hubby was behaving very weird a couple of weeks before.Pening2..loya pagi2..wekk wekk masa gosok gigi tu..haha tak boleh makan nasik..tak lalu nk makan nasik for 2 weeks kot..tak sedap badan la..macam2. He suspected that i was already pregnant by that time..i said nothing la coz tak nak mengharap sangat kan..Lepas period missed by a few days baru la test betul2..this time memang dia tau la..and anxious nak tau the result..again 2 lines..and faint still..
unexpected but thankful of course..but this time around, i tried not to get too excited about it..ye la once bitten twice shy..plus tak nak mengharap sangat..
Until 8th week rasanya lepas check up and confirmed ada heartbeat semua..baru la spread the news to our families..
Now i would like to share this happy news and moment with u guys..and hope that all of you will pray for the health and well being of my baby..and me too..InsyaAllah EDD is 15/06/10.please pray for us yea..=)
As the closure of the year 2009..on the 25th..our 1st Wedding Anniversary..
wow..rasa macam baru je kawen..always in the honeymoon mood eh..hihi
it was a beautiful day..hubby gave me a surprise vacay (surprise kee bb..cam dah ley teka jeeee..hakhak [=p)
everything was beautiful and nice..the ambience..the place..ahhhh heaven..rasa tak nak balik je..huhu
thank you so much bb for the wonderful day..and for being the love of my life..for all the things you've done for me..i really appreciate it..
I'm sorry if sometimes i gave you a hard time..well now i think most of the time kot..with the mood swings, the super sensitive perangai..malas nak masak..mengada-ngada and such..:p
Just so you know..
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!
although i may not say it often enough (as u would always say it).=)
alaa..bagi can la nak feeling skettt..haha k dah2 enjoy the pics
sayonara, au revoire 2009
and welcome 2010!!
Happy new year peeps!